Hello dear reader,
Today will bring a series of random thoughts, mostly to let you know I'm still here, though mostly unable to post, due to this very frustrating "You have logged out from another location" situation. Oddly enough Blogger works randomly and occasionally - usually when I'm unprepared and have nothing to say. If anyone else has experienced this, or know how to correct it, I'd appreciate hearing from you!
Random thought # 1
I got my hair cut last week. It is a good cut and I am happy with it. I did, however, get sucked into buying a bottle of very expensive post-shampoo product that promises miraculously smooth hair that also cuts drying time by 20%. We'll see about that. However, even if it ends up being a bunch of hooey, the haircut itself was worth it.
Random thought # 2
Roasting anything makes it taste better. Last night I had cauliflower for supper. I don't like cauliflower, but I roasted the whole head (chopped into bits) with many cloves of garlic and about half an onion for about 40 min, then pureed the whole lot of it. It was fantastically delicious. I might be a cauliflower convert.
Random thought #3
It is very flattering that the public believe their friendly neighbourhood librarian knows all things, but I'm telling you folks, we don't. My particular weak link is technology. I tremble when someone asks me about their ereader, and feel inadequate when they need help with their email account. I run the other way when assistance is required in the local history room and I'm expected to set up the microfilm machine. I wasn't always this entrenched in Ludditism, and I'm not sure when or why it began, but it seems a hopeless case now. If this is a case of sink or swim, I'm afraid I'm going down. Donations of floaties or lifevests would be gratefully accepted. Please email the author for forwarding address.
And now for something serious:
Random thought #4
It must be a few weeks ago now (that's how long its been since I've been able to post here), the Gospel reading (I think from Luke) was of Jesus asking Peter to cast his net "into the deep", to which Peter assured Jesus that they had been fishing all night, with little success. Jesus insists, and so Peter does. We know, of course, the result: a catch so plentiful they couldn't haul the nets back into the boat. Peter responds by pleading with Jesus to leave him, because he was a sinful man. How does Jesus react? Not with anger or disappointment, but by telling Peter to not be afraid. How wonderful!! Assurance from Our Lord Himself that we need not fear Him.
I need that reminder now and then, because I talk myself into believing I'm a wretch and God couldn't possibly love me. And yes, it's true that I'm not perfect (I heard a gasp from the audience) and I must rely on Grace to get through each day, and God's mercy to end my days with Him, but it is just as true that God created me to be me. He sees the depths of me - yes the wretchedness which I cannot deny - but also the wonderfulness which I often cannot bring myself to acknowledge.
The point I took from Luke's reading that day was: we need not hide our sinfulness from God. We need not ask Him, like Peter did, to depart from us. He knows we have a tendency to question, doubt, struggle, fall...and He still loves us, and still asks more from us, like Peter, who so often got it wrong in his time with Jesus, and still was made a fisher of men.